My vacation this year.

**WarhawK** · 06-16-2016, 12:57 PMPost: #1

This year we took a vacation from some ongoing family issues. If I've been behaving oddly (oddlier than usual) or been missing or inactive, it's partly because of those issues. Warning: This is some heavy shit. Objectively kinda depressing. Consider yourself advised.

'Kay here goes the "real" reason I personally believe we took a vacation this year. My younger sister is fucking cray-cray. Of the batshit raining down from the cavern ceiling variety cray-cray. In lieu of using her real name, let's call her Lizzie. It's been roughly 15 years since her initial diagnoses. (Schizo-affective, Borderline Personality Disorder, bipolar, manic-depressive just off the top of my head.) When the meds she's on don't turn out to be magic bullets designed to instantly fix her broken life, she stops taking them. She's a champion manipulator, knows exactly what buttons to push to get what she wants, and spends my older sister's money like it'll never run out. My elderly parents and my sister have to deal with her every day. Oh right, my family also took in and raised Lizzie's three kids, youngest of which has severe autism. We took him with us to Myrtle Beach this year. When offered, his sisters aka my nieces elected to stay home. Lizzie we left behind.

So if I've seemed distracted, remote or preoccupied, it's mostly from all that. Having said that, I take full responsibility for my own decisions. My purchase of Rainbow 6 Siege and subsequent abandonment of same? Good decision or bad, that was all me. Letting my artwork fall by the wayside for almost two years? Also me, albeit a more complicated personal issue. (Spoiler: Mid-Life crises are a bitch. If you have the means, go with immortality. Living forever means no mid-life crisis.) Speaking of which, weird shit I say in which there's no way of knowing if I'm joking or not? Also me. My missing the THB LAN Party earlier this month? That was my van dying on me last year. One of these days I'll get a vehicle I can actually drive, just not yet. Me missing Dwel and Mad_Momma's wedding 7 years ago? Although Good ol' Lizzie had indirectly and unknowingly disrupted my plans for attending, that was mostly me mishandling the situation. While I couldn't attend in person, I gave them my blessing then and continue to do so now. My clinical depression, perpetual unemployment, ADHD, possible (undiagnosed) Asperger's and whatever else? I take full responsibility for the decisions I make in dealing with my personal issues and other bullshit. My goal is to prevent others from being adversely affected as a result of those decisions. I want to be a decent person who treats others with kindness, respect and friendship.

Myrtle Beach was very relaxing. Hanging out on the balcony, a middle-aged dude can ogle from afar much younger, bikini-clad women, and no one bats an eye!

Anyway that's a glimpse into my world. How I'm spending late Spring/early Summer. An Update if you will.

XxHaVoKxX · 06-18-2016, 02:15 AMPost: #2

Sorry that is happening. But nice hearing from you! and (Silence)...........................................................

**WarhawK** · 06-18-2016, 11:44 AMPost: #3

True, lurking on Internet forums typically doesn't generate a ton of noise. Unfortunately when I do it I tend to be a little clum-

Dwel13R · 06-20-2016, 06:38 AMPost: #4

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We understand.....

**WarhawK** · 06-30-2016, 08:34 AMPost: #5

More good news, and by "good" I mean "meh". Last week I went in for a bone density test, and the results were disappointing. My Osteoporosis is getting worse, compared to what it was after my last test a few years prior. Despite my increased rehab, PT and daily exercise since that time, I'm still spending too much time sitting on my arse. My left thighbone feels like a double-handful of uncooked spaghetti, and my pelvis rings like a bell if I sit down too hard.

If I do put another 200 hours into gaming or whatnot, I'll need to spread it over weeks and months, instead of all the time like it is now. /me changes gamertag to The Filthy Casual. Err, maybe Casualgamer. Captain Casul? Hmmm, lemme work on it.

Assuming my docs don't nix the sit-down gaming idea altogether.

**WarhawK** · 10-17-2016, 12:03 PMPost: #6

Fun Fact: On August 21st of NEXT year Myrtle Beach SC will lie directly at or near the path of the Moon's penumbral shadow during the upcoming total solar eclipse event. Biggest such event in almost 100 years. Sun will disappear behind the Moon for freakishly long 2 min 31 secs. SO NATURALLY every major hotel has been booked that entire week pretty much since May of THIS year. Presumably also true for every vaycay spot along the SC coast. No vacancies expected, but we'll keep an eye out. Meanwhile we're looking into Nashville TN instead, which will put us a bit closer as apocalyptic darkness (read: a trite celestial coincidence) consumes us all.